First, let me apologize for this video but I promise that you’ll (probably) thank me at some point – it’s truly life changing. You have to watch this first and then read the rest of the blog. Ready set go!
Life is pretty hard. We love hard. We hurt hard. We fall hard. In the middle of all of this “hard life stuff” I’ve realized something pretty important about myself. I have to choose to see the pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows whenever I can in order to not always live in the moments that are not pink, fluffy, or rainbow-y. I have to laugh when shit is funny and laugh like it’s my last laugh on this planet. I have to love when I feel my heart wanting to explode and share that love like it’s the last time I’ll love anyone. I have to dance when the music moves me, sing when the perfect song comes on, and not worry about how my hair looks and just swim when the water’s right in front of me. I have to forget about perfection and when the occasion arises; drink wine, and eat chocolate. I have to ignore my crazy to do list for a morning and have breakfast with my best friend, and I have to choose to pick up the phone and call my family just to say that I love them.
Getting older has taught me a lot. Getting older has taught me that I’ll never know what’s coming next, I’ll never really be ready for what the next thing is, and all I really have to hold on to is what I know to be a constant truth. I know me. I know my own heart. I know my own intentions and I know I want to live this life despite the moments that are not pink and fluffy, despite the mistakes I make, despite the hard life stuff and how I choose to navigate those moments that really don’t have any right answers. I know that who I am at my core is constant, but I also know that life is all about change and that no matter how life changes, I’ll always know my own truth. I’ll always be ok with whatever happens because I’ve already survived a lot and no matter where life goes – I’ll always have my integrity, my soul, my heart and my own self respect. It’s taken me a really long time to get here and it’s still a struggle to not beat myself up or doubt or wish or worry – but it’s pretty freeing to be ok with who I am and to have the ability to choose to see the pink fluffy unicorns even when it’s dark outside and the rains pouring down and the last thing I want to think about is anything beautiful.
Learning to see the beauty in the storms is life changing. Thunder and lighting is scary but when you’re in a safe place, it’s beautiful. Lightning can kill you if you’re in the wrong place at the wrong time, but it can also turn night into day and explode into color with heat and beauty like nothing I’ve ever seen. Thunder is loud and ominous, but it’s also magical music, deep and rumbling, mysterious and glorious. Pain and fear, light and beauty are one and the same when you choose to see every part of every situation and not just focus on what hurts the most. Hurt is healing when you’re able to cry and feel and learn from the hurt, grow from the hurt, and be ok when the hurt is over.
Surviving the storm is the best part of getting through it – and life guarantees storms – sometimes they are clearly seen in the forecast but often they come without warning.
Life is ultimately good because I choose for it to be good. I could live a life of excuses because of what I’ve been dealt but then I would miss out on the opportunities to enjoy the pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows and why would I EVER ignore something as spectacular as that? I am inspired by others who in comparison have been dealt much more challenging hands. Choice is an amazing freedom and I choose to see the beauty in the storm, be true to who I am, sing with the windows rolled down and the wind in my hair, and to hop on and hold on tight to the pink fluffy unicorns as often as I can.